I Know, I Know, I Know..

So, I'm beginning to think that blogging has become the way I exhibit my menses because it only seems like once a month that I get the urge to share my flow of randomness onto the unsuspecting masses, which I'm sure by now means all two of you who check in to see if I've updated or not.

Either way, I've been trying to dig myself out of what can only really be described as personal doldrums.  I suppose if it were diagnosed it would probably be a depression, but I prefer to just consider it a low point that I am pushing through.  While I've certainly kept busy (probably too busy), I have just been fighting these feelings of "apartness" that really have sent me to new lows.  It's not been fun.

I've completely gotten tubby.   I weigh more than I've ever weighed in my entire life.  Granted, thanks to me getting in shape a few years ago, I wear the weight pretty well.  However, it became one of the mental weights that dragged me down further.  Whenever you reach a point of satisfaction, you always tell yourself, "I'm never going to let myself lose this.  I'm never going to (in this case) let myself get fat again."  Then as you stand there naked in the mirror, day after day, seeing yourself lose everything you fought so hard to get.  It just has a debilitating effect.

With all that being said, I am coming out of it.  Of course, this is happening just as we move into dark and twisty winter, which always makes me annoyed.  So, maybe it is just a short patch of sun for me.  However, I'm back in the gym (10 of the last 12 days), and even though it  has really only been 3 weeks back on the wagon, I'm already starting to see shifts in my girth, which are making me feel better about myself physically.

Mentally...well, it is a work in progress.  I'm still taking on too much, and I am still not liking my job all that much either.  Frankly, I think getting back to blogging will help with this.  No, I don't plan on this becoming "Confessions of  a Midwestern Whiner."  I just need an outlet.

Welcome back to me. :-)

Monday, January 5th - New Year and New Beginnings

Eh, it's back to work, and while I did achieve the goal of cleaning my apartment (I had to force myself to do it by inviting people over for a Movie/Wii night), I did not get around to changing my blog, which, as with most things in my life, has gone from simply changing the look to completely moving to my own domain and hosting package.  Yes, folks, after many years of doing my own website and almost two years of being on Blogger, I am now moving back to having my own website, with a blog as the main component.

I really hadn't planned on doing this.  The main reason I stopped paying for hosting is because that $99 a year + domain registration just became one of those not really necessary expenses, but as 2008 went on and I was setting up the Indy Pride website on my favorite hosting service, Fat Cow, the price had dropped to $88 a year.  Then a few weeks ago, it went down even further to $66, and as the price limbo'd lower, my dissatisfaction with how difficult it was to work within the confines of Blogger began to become even more acute.  Then, right before Christmas, they dropped the bomb on me:  $30 a year hosting for a personal site!  The offer expired today, and as of yesterday, I am once again own my own website.

I haven't reserved a domain name yet, and I am not even sure what the look is going to be.  I will say that the name "I may be from Indiana, but I am NOT an Idiot" will not be making the move.  It's dead, Jim.  I'm pretty sure I am going to base the site off of the WordPress blog software, but that is not a done deal yet.  What I really want to have is a multifunctional website that will not only serve as my blog space, but it will also be the defacto portfolio for my somewhat unorganized website and burgeoning graphic design business.  I'm still working out the details in my head, and for the time being, I will still be spewing my invective here at Blogger.

So thank you for being patient.  I am excited about the move, and I think it is going to open up a lot of different opportunities for me to expand and expound on things I hold near and dear.  I will let you know when I am ready to move over to the new domain, and if I cannot find a way to port over the postings here, I may keep this blog up indefinitely.